she's getting here as fast as she can.

I've just been thinking for a while, why is it so hard for me to get a girlfriend, when around me so many guys are all being snapped up? do I have too high standards? too fat? too stupid? not romantic enough? too desperate? too ugly?

It could be all that and more.

or maybe, just maybe, God is paving the way for me to be the man I have to Be for my perfect woman. cos when I meet her, it will be just normal. just like meeting anyone else. but as we get to know each other, as we get to where we have to be where love blossoms, as we become the person we need to become for it to work, God will be working in our lives. in her life. in my life. and when god decides that we're finally right for each other, he will let love blossom in our lives.

sometimes I tire of waiting for God. but i know deep down that just anyone won't work. He's got that special someone waiting for me. and though the world may say"he/she's the one" I believe that the truth behind it is that God knows who the one is for you and me. and when god allows it to happen, it will be amazing.

many times, I've rushed ahead. decided to love someone who wouldn't, couldn't reciprocate. and each time I got burned. and yet i didn't learn. and I tried my hardest to make it work. and it always failed. 

I do have someone I care deeply about now. but with this friendship, I will not rush ahead. I cannot. I must allow God to work, make room for him in my life. to show me, to take me where he wants to lead me. Because his plan for my life is more exciting, more awesome, more extravagant than anything i could ever imagine. and I want that.

Sometimes, I get tired of waiting for her to get here. but then i remember, She's getting here as fast as she can.